Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Artist block.

It's here again. The thing that every inspiring artist dreads, when it knocks on their door they-in a heartbeat-run for under the covers hoping not to be spotted by the blood thirsty beast called; artist block.

Artist block has been visiting me for about a week now, although it's not as bad as it used to be. I can still draw things and draw some of them somewhat well, but I have no inspiration or picture ideas, I'm finding myself copying allot and even then I can't seem to do anything. The best thing I can draw right now is. . . a head shot. Haha.

In this last week of artist block I have been thinking about my style. Yes, my art style. It's something I'm not particularly proud of. So ive been thinking if I should change my art style. I consulted my older brother and he gave a wonderful piece of advice:
"Take a year and dedicate it to drawing a different style."

I thought that was a wonderful idea, and so I am dedicating 2010 to realistic anime drawings. 2011 is dedicated to advancement in my portraits and real life drawing. So with that said, here is the last thing I did recently:


Saturday, January 2, 2010

Wired, Like air is my Engery Drink.

Last night around 12:00AM I discovered that I was as wired as the day I drank a large Mnt. dew Energy drink. I don't know why, but I could just not get sleepy. Upon discovering this, I decided to draw. I have been drawing for 6 years, and through that whole time I have never been able to create a male character that I was proud of. So thus, With the help of friends, this was made.

Name: Cross Kozlov
Age: 19
Birthday: January, 1, 1991 (Sagittarius)
Hair: white
Eyes: Ice Blue
Type: Yandere
Job: Waiter
Family: Ace (His Little Brother)

Likes: Pandas, Knifes, Fish, Ace, Tormenting. . .er. . .anything really, but mostly ace, his job, the sky, flying, high places, ballrooms.

Dislikes: The dark, underground, small places (Hes claustrophobic), Messy houses, Dirt, Cats, Butterflies (A odd fear of his.)

Friday, January 1, 2010

Here we are to welcome 2010.

I did it. I made it through another year of tossing and turning, of up and downs. Like anyone else, right? This year has over all kinda been depressing. I kinda lost the pizazz of my life this year, like a huge worry and depression come over in a dark cloud called 2009. It was hard and it did some damage to my mentally. I'm not as strong as I used to be and I'm a little worried. I'm growing up and I'm moving through and even though I've been kicking for some years, it still seems like I know nothing about this big scary world.

Although I don't really make New Years resolutions, I tried doing so this year.

*Be a more understanding person
*Work on my portrait and realistic drawing
*Tell more people about Jesus
*Try and work on my book more
*Read my bible each night
*Get my Manga started.
*Get in touch with God again

That last one is going to kill me. I'm so scared to go back and I don't know why, but I know once I get their it will be all right. Some of those resolutions might make you laugh, because they are not very serious, but every one of these points I want to see if I can get done by the end of the year (Some of them though, will be life long.)
Oh? Did I mention these as well for life long?

*Learn Japanese
*Learn Russian
*Learn German
*Learn French
*Travel the world
*Become a Manga artist
*Publish a book
*Go to Hollywood
*See the Iditorod
*Pay to be dressed like a meiko (Kyoto, Japan)
*Voice act an anime
*Write a book and publish it
*Become a Missionary in Japan (Maybe a translator too, whatever God wants me to do is what this space is reserved for. Haha. )
*Create an animation

Yes, that's my bucket list. Haha.

So, I know there is no art in this post but. . . I just have to tell you, I did it again.
That's right. I started a picture at 2009, and then finished it around, oh, I dont know, 2010. 1 MINUTE after 2010! That's insane, and you know how I signed it? "2009" Haha! It had only been 2010 for 1 minute so I didn't remember and I had to scribble it out and put "2010" And that's how my year started. As scatter brained as ever.


Wednesday, December 30, 2009


I have been thinking about learning Russian this past week, and I finally sat down to learn a lesson. My family keeps saying I'm very gifted in the area of languages, so I thought this would be fun. It is pretty interesting, I'm finally rolling my Rs and making that hard guttural sound, but it's the "V" and "Y" sound that always throws me off. I have found that the Russian Alphabet is allot easier then the Japaneses writeing system, which after three years of Japanese, I still haven't been able to figure out. Hopping in between Japanese and Russian was entertaining, cause I'd end up making the Russian sounds for Japanese and vise-versa. After awhile I learned how to say "Miss, Excuse me" and I'm working on "Wassup" and "hi". "you" in Russian is a pain. How the heck do you say "Vy"? But I figured it out, it's gonna take awhile before I actually can understand things.

Have some Vodka, da?

That picture above is of Russia, from Hetalia: Axis powers. A.K.A my favorite character. Hetalia has been my new obsession for awhile, I love that show. It has made history and culture so much more entertaining. And it's what inspired me to try out Russian (and eventually German). The picture above was done in Photoshop CS3, Trial version. (Since I am a poor artist.) and It was supposed to be kinda watercolor-ish. It was all I could do for a watercolor effect, but now that I bought some watercolors I want to try out real watercolor. I have been thinking about coming back to landscapes like I did back in art school, but I'm too scared. That whole experience scared me for life. Yet, I know I need to get over it, since my family loved my landscapes. My grandma was pleased to hear I'm painting again. I guess it's help to her since my grandpa died and he used to paint so shes glad its being passed down.

I'm not sure.


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